ok soooo i’m sure everyone has read/or at least pretended to read steinbeck’s “of mice and men” in english class sometime between the 6th and 11th grades…… wellll that book was one of the most boring/uninteresting books i’ve ever read…. but throughout the past few months, that story has been on my mind for some bizarre reason and i am now realizing how much of a masterpiece it is. WHY you ask? because steinbeck symbolically illustrates how unexpected curve balls in life can ruin the most carefully thought out plans.

for instance, unanticipated rain can screw up a really well-organized wedding or hiking trip. but that’s just a mini example… soooo many unforeseen factors in life can completely change one’s plans. someone may go to college wanting to become let’s say…. a world renowned lawyer… they enroll in a bunch of interesting poli sci classes….intern for a slew of distinguished law offices….study their butt off for the LSATS and the bar……finally be able to practice law and then learn at the start of their career that the job isn’t meaningful enough, that the stuff that they envisioned to be doing isn’t actually what they are working on…. or maybe something happens… God forbid an unethical lawyer serves a client who killed your best friend and wins the case, scars you, and makes you not want to continue your profession. or maybe you really do like your job and you end up working there for decades but suddenly your law office goes bankrupt… and you need to find an immediate replacement job (be it an attorney position or not) to feed your fam. i mean… these are some extreme scenarios but seriously… anything can happen in life.

so my question is…. why even plan? why not just go with the flow… graduate with a psychology or some other BROAD major and just take any opportunity that comes your way? 

i’m writing about this because i am one of the meanest planners i know! i plan hardcore plans for my future. i’ve taken all these steps to achieve the future that i want…but unexpected things keep happening in my life (which aren’t necessarily good OR bad… just unexpected). and i’ve started to just go with the flow now…. and i can’t be happier…..

unexpected moments in life—-whether it be rain, or new encounters with people, or reencounters with old acquaintances… whether it be a financial boom/bust, an illness, or a miraculous healing from a disease—-are ubiquitous and are bound to happen. so while “the best laid plans of mice and men [DO] oft go astray,” life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… but learning how to dance in the rain.. kakaka so corny but true!

it’s been 235 years since the inception of this nation, and while it definitely stirred up feelings of reverence for this country… i can’t help but feel damn ashamed! the hypocrisy of this country sort of shocks me. a land that’s supposed to embody justice, equality, and freedom is well…not representative of those qualities at all… and i don’t want to get into the nitty gritty arguments of politics/capitol hill. but honestly….i feel that our government’s values are nestled so cozily in all the wrong places. i mean, perhaps i was a little too naiive in believing the unyielding patriotism that our founding father’s had for the new world. or maybe the star spangled banner and the pledge of allegiance really had me believe that our country was such a humanitarian, and had really great morals. but who are we kidding? does the government really have the best interest of its people? does congress really rally for equality? justice? freedom?

what really is the purpose in these magnificent fireworks and moving anthems. why should we have a day off on july fourth and celebrate the reputed “freedom” that our founding fathers bestowed upon us if we don’t practice any of these ideals 235 years later? are natural resources really so crucial as to start a damn war and spend trillions of tax dollars to kill thousands of innocent people?

greed is bad. bad bad bad BAD and it will be the destruction of mankind! i feel like a damn preacher and.. i’m pretty greedy too but… we should really check ourselves and examine our actions… we are not what we say we are. i am such an idealist. but a hopeless one…. cause i too am a pretender of my own ideals (if that makes any sense)

so.. i guess… another.. circular post cause there’s no remedy to this problem since mankind will always be greedy… just rambling again.

i love growing up just as much as i hate permanently separating further away from my childhood. with age comes deeper wisdom.. a clearer sense of morality.. and a stronger understanding of yourself… but those gains are also accompanied by greater responsibilities and expectations. more accountability, stronger convictions to reciprocate another’s act of goodwill, tougher choices. not that those things are bad, but it’s just like WOW i’m getting older and there’s no turning back. 

haha this song reminds me of a dude i dated in the summer when i was like 14… good life